since then, i've been taking time to consider what comes next...listening to my heart, allowing the ideas to flow around me, trusting that i will be able to discern the right direction. i've been looking through the quilts that still live with me, honoring them as i reflect on all they've taught me. and now...
i'm letting go.
it's exhilarating and frightening at the same time. much like jumping off a cliff i suppose. the committee is back in action, questioning my desire for change just when i'm realizing a modicum of "success". oh the ego..."how can you do that now???" it sputters...
because i have to. i do the work for me.
perhaps people will be interested and keep following me, but perhaps they won't. i'm okay with that. i love praise and accolades as much as anyone, and i hope there will be folks who appreciate it and maybe even buy it, but all that has nothing to do with why i do the work.
anyway, i'm taking things slowly, and, since i knew i wanted to change it, designed the new banner for my etsy shop last night:
the little line below the banner that had read "small art quilts : : made fresh daily" has been changed to "small works of art : : small leaps of faith".
this banner more accurately reflects my process, as i work in silence most days. the change to "small leaps of faith" acknowledges the trust that is required of me each day as i climb the 35 stairs to my studio.
part of me wants to dive head into some new work, but i don't feel ready. it's more a need to busy than creative i think.
outside my window it is snowing, but there are the teensiest of buds appearing on the trees.
the landscape reflects how i'm feeling. as the earth warms and quickens, i want to savor this time of gestating. i want to breathe in the possibilities, confident that wonderful things will come if i just give them the space they need until they are ready to be born...
: : karen anne